Alright. I am a creature of habit. My best habit of all... SHOPPING. Since we are getting our debt down, I am currently only in the market for window shopping, but shopping none the less. I am obsessed. I get nervous if I only have an hour. Let's just be honest here, I get nervous if I only have three hours. So going to the mall is a must while on maternity leave.
When Kolbe was born, I went to the mall 1 week post-partum with him in the Bjorn and Rocky in his stroller. Success!
But, now I have four little munchee-chees and I am a bit nervous. Not only for the actual excursion but for the preparation. You see, when you look young and have many children, people look at you and think, "OMG, she needs to STOP having babies" or "Poor, little girl. All those kids". When in reality, I am stoked to have my pretty young thangs in tote! I also must make them look beautiful and matched and primped to the nines because those same people are the ones who see Rocky's long and luxurious locks and say, "Wow, she doesn't even comb her kids hair". Why, yes ma'am, I do comb my boy's hair, it is just so beautiful and I am not such a woman as Delilah.
When Matthew and I went on our first outing with all four kiddos, I was in sweats and felt all eyes on us. Maybe that was just my insecurity but I felt as if people were judging me. I immediately came home and cut Kolbe's outlandishly, curly locks to make him look more "presentable".
I guess I just have to get over it but it definitely seems as if our society values the cover rather than the book. I care too much about what people think and I know that. I just wish people realized that my kids are well behaved, have manners, and will one day be your kids' bosses... THANK YOU VERY MUCH! hee hee hee ;)
My wonderful friend Shelly gave me the courage to try going by myself with all the chili beans! So, here goes nothing. I will letcha know how it goes.
2 comments:
Hold your head up high. I see women like you at the store balancing 3- 4 babies and I always stare in amazement (sorry). I admire how brave they are. I'm still working up the courage to have baby #2. Mothers of multiple babies make other women like me feel insecure ( I'll admit it!). We wish we were brave, we wish we would trust God more and put in the work, love and energy it takes to raise a family.Its my opinion that people who attempt to give you the "stink eye" or "side glance" aren't worth your time. My mother had 4 children under the age of 6 and I remember people saying things to her about us and she would just smile and say "they are my blessings". She was teaching me at a young age to not given in to the attitude of others. Be momma and be proud!
TT! I nominated you for a Liebster Award. I know you're probably super busy but I need more pics of those kiddies! http://cevichion.blogspot.com/
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